To every mommy who has had the dreaded baby blues after the birth of their precious little miracle..I feel your pain!
I always thought I could beat the odds, that all those women were just emotional and sappy and that I would never be like that...BUT GUESS WHAT!! I was!
Never say never right!
So here I was 2 days after my little bundle of joy is born and we are rushed to Children's hospital and she is put on jaundice lights for 24 hours. I can't hold her I cant comfort her...I just have to lay there and watch her as she 'catches a sun tan' as the Dr so nicely put it. Throw in her ripping her IV out of her head and pulling her umbilical cord off on day 4 and I was one mess of a momma!
I had my handsome little boy, the most precious little girl anyone could ask for and all the help I could I ever need...yet I still just wanted to crawl in a hole and bury my head. I didn't want to go anywhere where there were going to be people...I didn't want to see anyone I knew...I just wanted to sit at home and CRY!
For all of you soon to be mommas or those thinking about it in the near future...remember that Baby blues are real and there is no shame in getting help. I have to say that looking back now I wish I would have gone to see my Dr and gotten some sort of help in those first weeks. I am sure they would have been much more enjoyable!
After Em was about 10 weeks old the waterworks stopped and I was pretty much back to my old self again, but I wish ten times over I would have sought help before.
It is crazy for me to think that I could have been so down when I had everything I would ever need right in front of my face. But it happens and you have absolutely no control over your emotions!
Wish you all the best!