To all the Soon to be Mommys....

To every mommy who has had the dreaded baby blues after the birth of their precious little miracle..I feel your pain!

I always thought I could beat the odds, that all those women were just emotional and sappy and that I would never be like that...BUT GUESS WHAT!! I was!

Never say never right!

So here I was 2 days after my little bundle of joy is born and we are rushed to Children's hospital and she is put on jaundice lights for 24 hours. I can't hold her I cant comfort her...I just have to lay there and watch her as she 'catches a sun tan' as the Dr so nicely put it. Throw in her ripping her IV out of her head and pulling her umbilical cord off on day 4 and I was one mess of a momma!

Fast forward about a week and we are home from the hospital and my baby boy is finally settling in to sharing time with his sissy and I think to myself yes all the tears are finally over I am going to be fine...see I knew it wouldn't be that bad....WRONG again! It only got worse.

I had my handsome little boy, the most precious little girl anyone could ask for and all the help I could I ever need...yet I still just wanted to crawl in a hole and bury my head. I didn't want to go anywhere where there were going to be people...I didn't want to see anyone I knew...I just wanted to sit at home and CRY!

To this day I cannot tell you why...but I remember sitting at my in laws house when Emory was 3 weeks old and having the biggest breakdown of my life! I was sitting there in the living room and all of a sudden people just start pouring in...first there are two and then four..by the time it was over there were about ten people there and I was a nervous wreck! Someone came in the living room and all they said to me was 'How are you feeling Mommy' and I lost it! I burst into tears and ran in the other room. Needless to say we ended up leaving and I stayed in bed the rest of the day.

For all of you soon to be mommas or those thinking about it in the near future...remember that Baby blues are real and there is no shame in getting help. I have to say that looking back now I wish I would have gone to see my Dr and gotten some sort of help in those first weeks. I am sure they would have been much more enjoyable!

After Em was about 10 weeks old the waterworks stopped and I was pretty much back to my old self again, but I wish ten times over I would have sought help before.

It is crazy for me to think that I could have been so down when I had everything I would ever need right in front of my face. But it happens and you have absolutely no control over your emotions!

Educate yourself and know what options you have! You do not have to be so down and depressed after giving birth. There are many ways to prevent and treat the symptoms.

Wish you all the best!